Science has done a great job recently of fulfilling the hippie maxim, "Better living through chemistry". Legal medication has evolved to a wonderful new apex where getting high can easily be, ahem, confused with getting better. After all, getting high IS getting better. And with the FDA behind this glorious vice, consistency and availabilty are increased, while risk (of facing legal troubles) and inconsistent pricing are now a non-issue.
Oxycontin, Percocet, Vicodin, Oxymorphone, Codeine, Fetanyl (sp?) are plentiful and wonderful. Not only that, but the new release of Opana makes it clear that big pharma has no intention to stop the crafting of sublime pills and patches. The new drug culture is here and it is quite an awesome sociological study. Of course, these potent chemicals can be lethal if used with reckless abandon. I, however, have a strong group of friends who have become de facto chemists as we, and the millions of you like us, embrace these medications along with the guidelines of how to use them. This is the new drug culture and should be recognized as similar to the LSD-fueled bliss of the 60's. Of course there are many differences, but LSD was legal then as the opioid medications are now. No longer should the purveyors and masters of this wonderful spice to the drudgery of modern life be forced into obscurity and hide what pleases them. It's legal! I will spearhead this call to arms as I poke holes in the drivel spewed by those who stigmatize the use of opioids. I need my readers to engage this discussion and join me in celebrating what makes us happy without harming anyone. This is going to be a major focus of my postings for as long as it takes to grab the attention of like-minded individuals looking for a place to feel joy without the unfair stigma placed on our behavior.
Comment here and share your experiences, opinions, resources, relevant links, etc. The new drug culture is here. Only an ignorant fool could deny its existence and only a selfish masochist could denounce what we do withing the guidelines of the law. It is our right and we will use it to heal the wounds, both physical and emotional, that we suffer in this increasingly dangerous world.
Welcome to the new drug culture. Be proud and keep it positive...
This week, as he approached his twenty-year anniversary on the radio waves, However, not many people know, but he is approaching another important twenty-year anniversary: the twenty-year anniversary for delivering the commencement speech for the class of 1989 at Cape Girardeau Central High School. Since I was there, and I have a phonographic memory, I thought I would reproduce the here.
“Wear sunscreen.
“If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. For in the future, the light radiating from my collected wisdom and personality will be so bright as to blind most people and cause burns. I would suggest , for my brightness will shine even during the night. Unfortunately, I’ve already melted the members of the National Honor Society today.
In honor of , celebrate with the crew of the USS Enterprise at the most kickass Fourth of July party ever:
And to get you in a patriotic mood, here's and the Muppets with their rendition of "The Stars and Stripes Forever":
And let's not forget that 20 years ago today, on July 4th, 1988, Greatest Living American Rush Limbaugh began his illustrious career on the radio! El Rushbo will be celebrating his anniversary by graciously accepting a brand new . Congratulations, Rush! Don't blow it all on !
Pike County, KY , because of the collective costs inflicted by the Oxycontin menace in that area of the country. Seems the money, if won, will be used for rehab centers.
While I appreciate the area's zeal in fighting the drug war -- after all, it's much easier for half the population to imprison or "rehabilitate" the other half than it is for folks in that area to actually do something with real economic value to themselves and the rest of the country -- Banned doubts that Oxy would've taken off if it weren't for the Drug War, which has allowed abuse of patent medicines to flourish while our nation's resources have been pissed down the throats of future generations, all in the name of Zero-Tolerance idiocy with regards to plant substances and the like. Happy 4th.
We had the good news today (16 days after the transplant) that Roger is starting to produce small numbers of white blood cells and neutrophils (the kind of WBCs most important for fighting infection). This is the first indication we've had that the new stem cells are starting to function in Roger's marrow and that engraftment may, therefore, be occurring. Because Roger has been feeling progressively worse over the past two weeks, this good news was a welcome relief.
The medication and TBI-induced side effects persist. The most annoying of these is called Hand and Foot syndrome, which has made his hands and feet quite sore and walking a real chore. To address this, the docs have taken Roger off the immunosuppressant drug cyclosporin and substituted in its place. We should know within 3-5 days whether this change will relieve some of the discomfort. The team is also continuing to try to identify and treat the causes of his continued elevated bloop pressure. They also switched Roger's pain medication (again) from IV Dilaudid to oral , in an effort to decrease the drowsiness associated with the dilaudid.
All in all, we're feeling hopeful that the healing has started.
Last night I had chest pains and was scared, but I realized that I had not slept, to speak of, more than 4-5 hours any night, in days. My nervous system is totally whacked, and I just can't seem to sleep. Too much stress--everyminute. I did manage to finally fall asleep, and stayed in bed until the afternoon. When my mom is at home, I always leave my cell phone on every minute, but for the past week or so, I decided to try and get some much needed rest while she was in the nursing home, so I turned it off, and let Rob field the calls for awhile.
When I woke up in the afternoon, and headed to the bathroom upstairs, I heard my phone ring. It was in my purse, so I fished it out, and found it to be dead. I guess it gave its last hurrah when it rang. So I searched all over to find my charger, and charged it for awhile. When it finally charged, I turned it on, and heard some frightening messages:
I received news today, that my mom was found in her nursing home room last night, rambling around, and said that she was "making copies." She told me later that she was hallucinating, and that she saw her roommate crouched in a corner under a bookcase, and that she (my mom) was calling out to her mama, who was doing flips across the floor. She also told me that she visited a Russian skating rink. But the primary thing was that she was loaded into the nursing home bus, and taken to Birmingham for some kind of medical research or testing.
All of this caused red flags at the nursing home (no kidding), as she was still not acting right at breakfast. They sent her to the hospital for a mental status check, thinking that she may have had a stroke. I received a call from a nurse at the nursing home, as well as a male nurse in the ER. He said that they saw no evidence of a stroke, but that she had pneumonia, and would likely be admitted. But they kept her there all day, and then returned her to the nursing home. They said that she answered every question correctly, except where she was. (She thought she was in Birmingham.)
I went to the nursing home this evening (when I got the messages), and found her very sick, and looking pale and horrible. She said that she had felt as close to death as possible through that whole scenario. (It was then that I questioned her about what she went through, and she told me the things cited above.) She seemed to be alert, but confused about what she had experienced. She said that she was aware that she was hallucinating.
She was very cold, so my husband and I went to eat, and to buy her some extra blankets. While I was in Walmart, I received a call from a male nurse who had been assigned to her at the nursing home for awhile. He said that he was very concerned (even though he was not her nurse right now) that they were taking her off the Oxycontin, and that they could not just "cold turkey" her like that. He said he feared that within a week, that could precipitate a heart attack, or open her up to all kinds of things. I totally agreed with him, and said that could not be done. (She has been on it for many, many years.) He advised that if I was her advocate, that I should demand that they give her the Oxycontin, and I said that I would, and I knew that she needed to stay on it. I told him that I had been told to call Debbie, the charge nurse, in the morning about the discontinuation.
He also told me that when he heard how she had been acting, that he could not believe it, and went to see for himself what her condition was. (She had always been alert and lucid when she was in his care.)
I told him that I had been her primary caregiver for 3 years, and that I had taken her to every doctor's visit, and knew her mental status well. I said that she does experience some momentary confusion at times, but nothing long lasting, and had never hallucinated before, so this was TOTALLY out of character for her.
Between the two of us, we suspected that it all may have been caused by a sleeping pill that was given to her last night, along with her Oxycontin. I do not know for sure if that was the first time she received it, but a nurse I talked to there (also named Betty) said that it was prescribed PRN (as needed.)
I asked them to please take her off the sleeping pill, as the combination of that with the Oxycontin, and everything else she takes may have been too much. (But I was told that they discontinued her Oxycontin, and I told her nurse that within a couple of days, she would be hurting so badly that she could not function at all without it.) She has tried to come off of it before, but didn't make it many days at all. She takes it for Rheumatoid Arthritis, Osteoarthritis, and Fibromyalgia (but mostly for the horrible pain of rheumatoid arthritis.)
I also discussed whether she could have been experiencing a low blood sugar episode, and they said that at supper her blood sugar was 200+, but no one checked it, when they found her roaming last night at midnight. They did say it was 95 before breakfast. That is low for my mom, as anything under a 100, and she starts dropping numbers very quickly. I guess it could have been a combination of her low blood sugar and the sleeping pill. I just don't know for sure. She has experience some confusion lately, but never to this degree, and never long lasting.
While I was talking to the male nurse (from the nursing home), he said that the doctor there had decided to try again and have her admitted, because he was still worried about her mental status, and the pneumonia. I asked where she would be admitted, and said I would meet her in the ER.
So we all spent the night in the ER waiting for her to be admitted. She does still have a bedsore, and I worry, of course, about MRSA (staph) in that hospital. They did bandage it tonight. (For those who have not been following this, she broke her right foot, and her left leg, and was placed in a nursing home about a week and a half ago for rehab.)
She was totally exhausted, and I asked them to please give her a snack, as she always had a snack to get her through the night at home, so that she would not have low blood sugar. (I don't think that they have been giving her one at night at the nursing home, and I told the nurse this evening that she really needed the snack to ensure that her blood sugar did not go low.)
My mom's primary physician came in while we were in the ER. He also felt that the sleeping pill, combined with the Oxycontin, may have caused the mental episode. He questioned whether she had taken a higher dose of Oxycontin anytime lately, and she said no. (She has never abused it, and only takes what she is prescribed.) I know this because I get her medicine all the time, and we have to get a new prescription every 30 days, so I know that there is always just enough to get her through the month.
He also said that the pneumonia was not a "big pneumonia" and that he wasn't sure that she had it, but he wanted to be cautious. (I am so thankful for that, as she has a really bad sounding cough.)
She was very upset that she had to wait there all day today, and again all night to be admitted. (I don't blame her.)
But she is very, very angry in general right now, and I don't really know how to deal with that anymore. I don't know the answers to any of this, and since I've been having chest pains, and am near a nervous breakdown myself, I took this past week off to try to rest, but I haven't slept hardly any. The stress of this is unbearable every moment. It has really taken a toll on my health as well, both emotional and physical.
I must say that after my initial reaction to the phone calls (which was a momentary panic), a peace came over me that I have never felt before in a crisis, and has enveloped me ever since. I know that it is God holding me up, and strengthening me, because I have been a nervous wreck for a couple of weeks (because of the tension and stress in our family.) So I am so thankful for His presence, as without Him, I could not go another step...
Please see other articles that I have written here:
Science has done a great job recently of fulfilling the hippie maxim, "Better living through chemistry". Legal medication has evolved to a wonderful new apex where getting high can easily be, ahem, confused with getting better. After all, getting high IS getting better. And with the FDA behind this glorious vice, consistency and availabilty are increased, while risk (of facing legal troubles) and inconsistent pricing are now a non-issue.
Oxycontin, Percocet, Vicodin, Oxymorphone, Codeine, Fetanyl (sp?) are plentiful and wonderful. Not only that, but the new release of Opana makes it clear that big pharma has no intention to stop the crafting of sublime pills and patches. The new drug culture is here and it is quite an awesome sociological study. Of course, these potent chemicals can be lethal if used with reckless abandon. I, however, have a strong group of friends who have become de facto chemists as we, and the millions of you like us, embrace these medications along with the guidelines of how to use them. This is the new drug culture and should be recognized as similar to the LSD-fueled bliss of the 60's. Of course there are many differences, but LSD was legal then as the opioid medications are now. No longer should the purveyors and masters of this wonderful spice to the drudgery of modern life be forced into obscurity and hide what pleases them. It's legal! I will spearhead this call to arms as I poke holes in the drivel spewed by those who stigmatize the use of opioids. I need my readers to engage this discussion and join me in celebrating what makes us happy without harming anyone. This is going to be a major focus of my postings for as long as it takes to grab the attention of like-minded individuals looking for a place to feel joy without the unfair stigma placed on our behavior.
Comment here and share your experiences, opinions, resources, relevant links, etc. The new drug culture is here. Only an ignorant fool could deny its existence and only a selfish masochist could denounce what we do withing the guidelines of the law. It is our right and we will use it to heal the wounds, both physical and emotional, that we suffer in this increasingly dangerous world.
Welcome to the new drug culture. Be proud and keep it positive...
I began using audio-visual entrainment systems and neuro-feedback to boost my meditation, relieve stress, accelerate the neurological healing process, relieve stress, and more - with SPECTACULAR results - shortly before I got clean.
I'll be reviewing several software packages over the couple of days, including:
Transparent Corporations NeuroProgrammer2, Mind Stereo, and Brain Sound Studio
and
The I-Doser Digital Drug simulation software, a package that uses half hour binaural beat sessions to replicate the brainwave patterns produced by a wide variety of recreational and prescription drugs, everything from DMT to Demerol to Yaba to Viagra and more. Here's a list of doses available to date. Keep in mind they're releasing new one's all the time.
Rave, 5-HTP, A-Bomb, Absinthe, Acid, Adrenaline, Adrenochrome, Afterglow, Aftermath, Alcohol, Alpha, anaesthesia, anti-migraine, Anti-Sad, Astral Projection, Astral Travel, Beta, Black Sunshine, Brain+, Bufo Toad (Bufotenine), Calm, Chakra, Cliff Hanger, Cocaine, Condition, Confidence, Content, Crack, Crystal Meth, Delta, Demerol, Dexies (dexedrine/dextroamphetamine), Diet+, Divinorum (Salvia Divinorum), DMT (Dimethyltryptamine), Downer, DXM (Dexamethasone), Ecstacy, ECT, Energizer, Excite, Epsilon, Extend, First Love, French Roast, Gamma, Gate of Hades, Genesis, Gray-b-Gone, Hand of God, Hangover Cure, Hash, heroin, Inhalant, Insomniac, Inspire, JuiceIt, Kava, Ketamine, LSD, Lucid Dream, Marijuana, Masochist, Morning Glory, Multipleo, Mystery, Nicotine, Nitrous, Opium, Orgasm, Out of Body, Oxy (Oxycontin), Peyote, Prozium (Prozac), Quit, Reset, Ritalin (Methylphenidate), Serene, Sex, Sleeping Angel, Speed, Theta, Tranquil, Trip, Viagra, Vico (Vicodin), Victory, Wet Dream, White Crosses, and the jack of all trades dose, You Choose.
Of course, the effects of the doses rarely mirror the chemicals themselves although in my experience a handful have come pretty damn close! The Nitrous dose left me feeling as if I'd just sucked a lungful out of a whip cream dispenser. Inhalant - well, let's just call it unpleasantly powerful. Divinorum, DMT, and Peyote were fun and funky. Alcohol and Absinthe offered me the most bang for my buck. Vico gave me that numb sensation around the lips and beneath the nose, the same one I used to get 15 minutes after popping a couple Vicodin.
I have experienced absolutely zero negative side effects.
Check back for more on these powerful packages....
As much as the Patriots were eager to turn the page on Spygate at minicamp Friday, they've got another unwanted story on their hands, offensive lineman Nick Kaczur was arrested in April for illegal possession of the powerful painkiller Oxycontin and cooperated with federal agents in a sting of his alleged supplier.
(Cough NARC Cough)
According to Bernard Grossberg, the attorney for alleged scum bucket dealer Daniel Ekasala, Kaczur wore a wire to help agents build the case against Ekasala.
My only question is, did he use a federal supplied wire or the one he Bellichek made him wear in football games?
A Drug Enforcement Administration agent said in an affadavit that a cooperating witness -- whose name was not revealed -- wore a recording device during three drug buys in May in southeastern Massachusetts. In each of the deals, the witness bought 100 OxyContin pills from Ekasala for $3,900 in cash, the agent wrote in a six-page federal affidavit.
What is he doing buying hundreds of Oxycontin pills weekly? I would find it hard to believe that he was not supplying pills to his teammates; there is no way he was the only one taking them.
On Tuesday, Kaczur denied taking part in a federal investigation or buying drugs and said he was not familiar with Ekasala, the Boston Globe reported.
"I don't know what you're talking about, bro," Kaczur said "I don't know where this is coming from. I don't know what you are talking about."
Grossberg and two other people briefed on the investigation, speaking on the condition of anonymity, said Kaczur was the cooperating witness in the case.
It just so happens that New York State Police charged Kaczur with criminal possession of a controlled substance following an April 27 traffic stop on the New York State Thruway.
Kaczur had been pulled over for speeding in Whitestown, N.Y., when police discovered the "controlled substance for which he did not have a prescription," a substance identified as oxycodone, N.Y. State Police Sgt. Kern Swoboda said.
Getting "stomped out" and Spygate really has taken a toll on the Pats! Say no to drugs.
Patriots spokesman Stacey James declined to comment on Kaczur, according to the report. "We're deferring all questions on this matter to the appropriate law enforcement officials," he said and later added "Snitches get stitches!"
Kaczur's agent, Vance Malinovic, said he was not prepared to comment on the case.
NFL spokesman Greg Aiello also declined to speak directly to the case, according to the report. "It's a law enforcement matter, and any questions should be directed to the appropriate law enforcement agencies," he said.
Maybe the Pats should have had Brady carry a case of Oxycontin during the Super Bowl, then maybe Kaczur would have protected him.
The NFL does not test for Oxycontin but does prohibit the misuse of prescription drugs. Not to test is stupid in my opinion.
Grossberg said Ekasala, an unemployed construction worker and father of 2-year-old twins, has also been asked by federal agents to cooperate, but has repeatedly refused. He said Ekasala was "an extremely reluctant participant and was somewhat enamored of being friendly with or having contact with a professional athlete," according to the report.
In other words he's not a rat-fink.
"My client was always sympathetic to Mr. Kaczur and suggested to him many times, as the text messages will show, that Kaczur ought not to be doing what he was doing," Grossberg said, according to the newspaper. "Professional athletes in this country are treated like royalty, and royalty sometimes abuses the people they come in contact with, and I think that's what happened to Ekasala."
Painkillers are NO joke...extremely addictive and within the culture of the NFL, they are seen as frequently as advil or aleve around locker rooms. If he was taking Oxycontin, he is basically taking Heroin.
Aside from violating the law, Kaczur is in violation of two ethics clauses the NFL has in place. The first, and not as serious is the anti-drug policy the league has (which needs to be overhauled). The second, which is taken more seriously, is the clause in every pro sport contract that each player must conduct themselves in a fashion that upholds the moral standards of the league. One and off the field.
While I'm strongly opposed to illegal drug usage I hate snitches more. He copped out to save his own ass. The guy has no prior criminal record (that I'm aware of) and possession is a minor crime by most accounts. He would have gotten probation, would have had to sign some autographs for some Boston kids via community service, and had to sign up for a drug rehab program. That's it. He wasn't even looking at time, in all probability. But noooooo, this guy is such a pansy that he goes snitch just to get himself out of having to have the inconvenience of meeting a probation officer.
Maybe Kaczur and Jose Canseco can hangout together.
As much as the Patriots were eager to turn the page on Spygate at minicamp Friday, they've got another unwanted story on their hands, offensive lineman Nick Kaczur was arrested in April for illegal possession of the powerful painkiller Oxycontin and cooperated with federal agents in a sting of his alleged supplier.
